For some odd re...

For some odd reasone I can't sleep...Hmm tried to earlier but just can't. Hmmm Playing chess online right now...Getting the snot kicked out of me. But its now like I am good!Gotta get up in 7 hours for work...Thank good I already in Peoria or the drive would suck!..Think i am pretty sure about movin in here with andy...Sounds like a wise move but i dont know yet!Just have to communte to spoon which is going to suck!Later,Billy

PEOPLE are FAKE

So today started out GREAT...nice rainy *** day. Well school went ok, got in trouble from my Instructor Mr. Mahaer, well I didn't exactly get in trouble...you see in order for me to understand theories I have to keep on asking questions and I keep on asking TOO complex questions that took the discussion futher and got to points he didnt want me to get to yet. So he told if I did it again before class got over (two minutes left) he was going to kick me out...but I am sure he was just kidding! Well Math was boring as usual I really dont understand those concept and to topit all off I left my bag in the art room..opps had homework for monday...but I think I will Manage! I am not going to discuss on WHAT I found out about you know who tonight but IT really PISSED me OFF that she would even consider doing that to me. But I dont CARE anymore! Screw her, she just lost a good friend.! Work was alright tonight. Made maybe 50 dont really remember. I do need to get better at waiting though so I can start making the "big bucks" if that is even possible at Damons. Well I am kind of going on a "date" Sunday with a girl from work, Danille(sorry if I miss spelled that!) Just a simple date after work. Think we are going to go see AP3 (she hasnt seen it yet) and going MINI GOLFING (I love that sport!) She is a pretty cool girl, talkitive, outgoing, I dont think we will have a rare moment of silence. I am glad I am going on this date it will help me get over aubra faster and I need to date. I wouldnt of started to date this fast but after aubra said those things to one of her friends THE FIRST NIGHT WE BROKE UP I figured I needed since she is wants too. Oh well I NEED to date, and I might as well not waste time. The feaky thing about this girl is that we both know Lauren (from Sky) and she posts in Livejournal: Shelovesthegame So now I have something to look forward to, :) I can feel my depression slowly decreasing out of my body! How can I speed up the process?LaterBillyBTW-who the hell is coming over to my house tommorow night after the dance? Derek? Brian? ...anyone else? Guys its going to be fun...

Reach an conclusion.

I have reached a conclusion....absoulte NO contact with her. I have took her of my friends list so I don't have to know about her life. I have found other use of a tutor for my english/math subjects (thanks Kasey) and I have started to meet and hang out with more people. She wants space I will give her time without me, maybe or maybe not she will relize what she has lost (if she even did). Ok, for now on no more talking about her in my entrys. I am going to be happy now and overcome this depression that I have been faced with. So last night was fun. Went out with Kasey and Micha. We mostly drove around town and Kasey made me eat TWO double cheese bugers at MIKEY D's But I could barly eat one with out getting sick. MY stomach has shrank I think. Well Michea didnt want to eat greasy food so we had to stop by Hannams for him which to me didnt make since, he would rather have something sweet and fat then a cheeseburger?!? After eating we went to Walmart to see how much CD's were for Kasey....then I dropped her off and went cruising more with Micha (he made me listen to his damn Country Music,) We then got waved down my Evyn uptown so we chilled up there the rest of the night (well until it started to rain) Think I am going to be hanging out there alot, it really got my mind of things. Meet/got reaquinted with a couple of people up there.....not to mention the couch and chairs were pretty relaxing.Well tonight I have to work at 4:30 to Off Wait (which is 9 or so?) Kasey and I might hang out when I get back but I don't know yet. Billy

Goldfinger lyrics!

"Counting The Days"So here I go and there you went...againJust another stupid thing that I done wrong.Locked up in my head, knocked down, beaten, left for deadWith all those brilliant things I should have said.I gotta get away, and find something to do'Cause everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.Still counting the days I've been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...Still counting the days that you've been gone.Day one, was no fun.Day two, i hated you.By day three I wish you'd come right back to me.Day four, five and six, well I guess you just don't give a shit.Day seven, this is hell. this is hell.I gotta get away, and find something to do.But everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.Still counting the days I've been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...Still counting the days that you've been gone.Still counting the days since you left me. 1,2,3,4...Still counting the days since you've been gone.A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it's too late now.A thousand things I wanna say...A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it's too late now.A thousand things I wanna say...Still counting the days I've been without you.Still counting the days that you've been gone.Still counting the days I've been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...Still counting the days that you've been gone.Still counting the days since you left me 1, 2, 3, 4...Still counting the days that you've been gone.Gone...Gone...Gone...Gone...

Its been a week.

Its been a week since the big break up. But as time keeps on going I dont feel any better. I have been a lot more stressed latly, can't eat, can't sleep, cant's concentrate. I have been eating once a day latly....all I had yesterday was a candy bar and a thing of milk. Before that, sarah made me eat a bannana, a cheese stick, and some chips, but it didn't go down very well. Everything I do reminds me of her. EVEN work reminds me of her, last night I waited on a couple that sat down in the same area that we sit. They were competing at the game play and nozzoling each other, it made me so sick to my stomach I had go to the bathroom to releave my pain. Goodthing is that they left me an eight dollar tip. Well Aubra is going to help me with my algebra tonight at four. I sure hope it doesn't feel odd, like it has everytime I see her. Ever had a constent pain in the pit of your stomach while your head is throbbing and everyday seems to last forever? Thats how I feel. I dont know why but it hurt yesterday when she said that I could have my couch back...yea I need my couch back but I dont think I want it back. Just to see it there in my Apartment would hurt because the memories of it. I hope this pain ends soon, I don't know how much longer I can stand it. I need to go paintballing or something to relieve the stress. Well to change the subject, work went ok last night. I only made 30 dollars but I only had maybe 5 tables. I did get asked to go "parting" last night by a few people at work but I turned them down. Getting drunk and wasting isn't my idea of fun, Altough they said it releaves stress. I am not going to do that, I would be a hypercrite if I did. Well got off a little earlier than closing last night (we close at 11) because it was so slow. Got to andys, was planning on getting on the net, but his server was done, so I layed on his coutch and feel asleep to American Pie 2. Woke at at 745 today and drove back to Canton. Hmm thats all I did. Gotta go the Finacial Aid Department now,LaterBilly